Over the past couple of
months and even more specifically in the past couple of weeks, God has been
speaking to me through various reflections in my personal life and just the
scenarios of human life in general. It started out with just the realization of
little things and it has grown into signs of confirmation from God recently to
revisit an old inspiration from last year. As I am writing, it is Sunday, June
11th of 2017 and there is no prior special significance of this day
to me, but it is now the day that I have established that there is no perfect
time, the time is now!
I was inspired around the
late spring/early summer time frame of last year to start a new journey and
explore the various gifts that God has blessed me with and start a new blog. If
you know me personally or keep up with me on social media, you probably wouldn’t
even know of this inspiration because it never manifested into physical action
for others to see. Behind the scenes when the inspiration first struck, I was
in preparation mode by setting up a Blogger account and starting to design my
profile, gaining inspiration from others as well as writing out ideas of the
topics and subjects that I wanted to write about. I was so excited about what I
felt the Lord had placed on my heart to set out and do, but as more time
continued to go by, I kept coming up with excuses as to why I should push things
back. I would always think of something to justify my feeling of the time just
isn’t right yet, everything had to be perfect: the title and domain name for
the blog, the layout and theme design, the topic and title of the first post;
nothing at that time seemed good enough.
Looking back at that time
frame last year, my inspiration was not being struck down by the idea of
releasing the perfect blog at the perfect time, it was struck down by fear! The
fear of judgement, fear of sub-par quality, the fear of rejection, and the fear
of the opinions of others; they were all contributing factors to my fading
inspiration. I was letting those fears control my thoughts and they were suppressing my inspiration and with the realization I now have found, I see that my fears were
an act of being disobedient to God. God gave me this inspiration last year and I
sat on it, letting it slowly drift to the back of my brain to the point where I
was leaving that inspirational gift to die.
Time waits for no one,
people can and will sometimes be judgmental and have preconceived opinions
about you and what they think you are capable of and who you should be, and
even though it hurts, some will reject you, but that’s life! When God puts
something on your heart to do, whatever it maybe, He expects us to do it for
His glory and not our own and if we don’t, we are showing God who or what
really has control over our lives. It’s a scary thought, but one of the best
ways to combat that is once you do realize what has or had control over you,
that you put forth your best efforts to change that and revive whatever God has
inspired you to do, right at that specific time; not days, weeks, months or
years down the line to when you think the execution and timing would be better, but now!
This post is just a
transparent moment for me, as I feel led by God to share my story and be
obedient to what He already asked of and inspired me to do. If I were to sit
any longer and get comfortable, I’m sure I could come up with some reason as to
why I shouldn’t post this or why I shouldn’t start up this blog and share my
story as it’s still being written because I haven’t made it to the other side
yet. The closer I have drawn to God, the more He reveals the gifts that He has
given me and the closer I feel He is leading me to my purpose! What better way
to start that journey to purpose then to just be obedient and follow through
with that God-given inspiration. Thank you so much for your time, reading and
support and I pray that my reflections and transparency may help someone else
on their journey. Things may be uncertain for the future, and what is
considered perfection is relative, but the time to share starts now!
Much Love,
Ebony
WONDERFUL! I couldn't agree with you more. I have come to the end of a more than 20 year journey that will become quite public in a few short days. I often struggled and contemplated this and that, but I am more than confident that this is my time. This is my season. Although I feared, procrastinated, doubted and all that, tiday, I am right where I am supposed to be (and so are you). God can and will restore the years that the cankerworm has taken, and whomever God ordained to be blessed by your blog WILL BE BLESSED. Fear not, Sister Ebony, He has overcome the world. I can't wait to see all that God has in store for you.
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Yvonne
Sounds exciting!!! Follow your heart girl. The good thing is you are choosing to go into the unknown walking with the most trusted. Remember you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. And greater is He that that is in you than he that is in the world. I am certainly pledging my moral support.
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