I know it’s been a minute but I’m back! Inspiration comes
and goes, and life continues to go on with the many things we have to do but I
always try to make time for what’s important to me. I’ve had some moments here
and there where I had the time to write but it’s still important for me to be
inspired to speak on something meaningful and I didn’t want to write until I
was (If you haven’t read my Seek Inspiration post, please go back and check it
out in the archives)! As I’ve continued to seek God for inspiration to write, I
started to reflect on my current state and it lead me to this thought: Who’s
winning in your life right now? Your faith or your “feels” aka feelings? Sometimes
we can get so caught up in wishing that we were currently living the life of
our dreams and we see others living what appears to be our dream and then “the
feels” kick-in and we start asking God, why hasn’t my time come yet?
If you have read some of my earlier post, then you would
know a bit of my story and if you haven’t feel free to go back and check those
out as well (they have the label #SingleSeries like this one, go ahead, I’ll
wait... ). Now that you’re all caught up… I know without a doubt that I’m
willing to wait on God so that He can bring me His best, but I’d be lying if I said
I didn’t have my moments when the feels try to come in the way of my stance to
get me to step out of God’s will and have me settle. I don’t believe there is
any jealously in my heart because every act and display of love that I see is
beautiful and I feel a genuine sense of happiness when I see it. I’m a lover of
love, but sometimes I’d think to myself that I wish that was me or I’d ask God
why can’t I have what I’ve always wanted yet? I try my best to be content and
continue to be patient but when the feels catch a hold of you, it’s hard to
shake them off at times, depending on how deep you let them get in. The longer
they hold on, the more it suffocates the faith that is inside of you which
holds on to God’s promises, and instead of walking in faith, you’re walking in
fear of the unknown and what if’s.
Catching “the feels” or being overwhelmed with our emotions
in some area of our life is bound to happen from time to time because we are
imperfect people, living in an imperfect world and things can’t go how we want
them to all of time. Feelings are just a part of life, but we don’t have to be
subject to them and allow them to operate in full force either! I’ve had to
give myself a reality check because I was starting to let the feels catch hold
a little too often; my faith is still there but continuously longing after what
I wish I had, even if it wasn’t for long periods of time, was starting to
suffocate my faith. My faith and feelings have been in battle for quite some
time; the feels may have won a few short rounds but I’m always pushing for my
faith in God and His promises to rise up and win the fight. It may not be easy,
but I trust and believe that it’s worth it!
Just as a reminder to anyone that may be going through
something similar to me or if “the feels” are trying to wreak havoc in another
area of your life (your career, progress in school, social life, finances,
other life milestones), always remember that emotions are temporary and are
always changing but God is constant, He remains the same! He hasn’t forgotten
about what He’s promised you; He might just be waiting for your faith to strengthen
so it doesn’t come and go with the wind. As always, I pray that I’ve encouraged
someone as I aim to encourage myself as well. Thank you for your continued
support on this journey and for your patience with my inconsistency lol. I
really want to dedicate more time and energy to this and watch it grow to be
all that God desires it to be when He gave me the inspiration! Unfortunately, I
may not be able to go full force until I finish grad school in May, but I do
still plan to continue on and write as much as I can in the mean time!
Much Love,
Ebony 💜
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